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2006/5/31 VACATION
FINALLY after this looooooooooooooooooooooong semester .. we can finally will get some rest .. although i have to work in the **** place for my training .. and may be i will take with my work one subject .. so i wont rest in this vacation .. i really need some rest for week at least .. well .. until now, i didnt decided if i will take a subject with the work or not... but i perfer not .. cause i have many think in my mind to do it .. and i cant study right now... for a while i will take a rest and enjoy that i'm in a Vacation with some work .. and i wont think about the semester and my future ..
yeah about my future .. it turns up side down .. i dont know what i will do now.. i cant imagine my self think again about my whole future .. after 3 or 4 years i was thinking about my directions and the future of me ,but now .. all my pictures broken down cause they turn CS to IS .. i know there is little differences between them ..but still .. i hope all things get fixed in these days ..
wish me luck ..
and soon i will talk in a little bit about my job and my plans for this summer...
HOPE U THE BEST FOR THIS SUMMER 2006/5/20 FINAL IS STARTEDHi EvErYoNe
Today is the first day on the final exams.. the time is going to the end .. and sooner we will finish the final.. and start our lovely VACATION.. although it will not be time to waste on fun... but it's still the vacation ..
wish us luck .. and pray for us to get a full A in every subjects ..
2006/5/17 i said .. "I can't "Good Morning EveryOne...
time: 6:00 am ... today 17-5-2006 wednesday....
it's a shining day , although i cant feel it...cause i have many feeling that cover my heart .. what should i do ?? i dont know ...
at the time like this .. i watch the sun rise ...from the down and start getting up and up .. you can see the warmth that coming with it .. in usual i like to watch it and thinking about the today work .. what i should do first ?? planning for today and faaaaaaaaar future ..my dreams and feeling come up with the sun and the warmth cover my smile... and it's all start when after 30 min of the sun rise ..
but today is different ... i feel down and i confuse .. althought i try to watch the sun rise..and feel the happenest ... but today i cant .. it's all because yesterday .. i cant help .. i want to forget ... but i can't ..
yesterday .. i was happy .. i feel that i'm on the top of the sun .. cause i was working in a very complex"for me at least" project .. and i finished it .. and it's perfect in my view.. some of my friends said that too.. and i believed that if you work on something with your heart on it .. it'll reflect your true feeling .. and appear as perfect as never done it .. and i believed this ..that's why when you eat the dinner that your mother make it ... it'll appeared to you it's very good and better than the resturand food.. anyway .. yesterday .. i was sure .. that i will finally prove my self to my dr .. i will show it that i'm somebody ..
all my dreams and that believed .. all gone, cause he think that my project it's ok .. and give me comments..that i thinks its break my heart with this harsh words... i always hate that guy.."dr".. but i never ever thought he's this unfair.. i dont know what to say .. i hate him very him .. i did all i can in this project .. and still it's not enough he said .. he throw all my time and my study .. all my efforts.. in the sea .. like i did nothing.. in that moment .. there were this silent voice that said to me .,, kill him ... hit him .. kill him .. i as my usual self .. i dont think this way .. but if i thought about it.. that's mean that i will do it now or soon .. so i try to finished discussing and go away from his sense.. i wanted to go and cry ... or kill him and it'll be better ..
when i come home.. i try to forgot to concentrate on the very soon exams.. he will ruin me , cause he wanted to prove that we can do better.. i know we can .. but if you encourage us ... well what happened is happen .. i can change nothing..other than future .. and i will ..
yesterday .. i said "I CANT change his unfairness " but today .. i will say .. if i can't change his mind .. i will change my goals and dreams .. to become bigger and bigger .. and return to whom they think they were fair to me .. and watch them with my hatfull feeling .. and say "Buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurn"
i know ..stupid .. but i really will do it .. as i did before .. to whom they said .. i will not enter the university or whom they said .. i can't drive a car .. what a stupidity they have...
this is the end of the sunrise .. always shine my day ... and burn my tears ... and destory my fears ..
thank allah that help us everyday...
final say : try to glow in the middle of the dark
2006/5/16 the sweetest birthday of minethis is the first time since my last bithday which was 13 year ago.. it's soooo nice to be remembered by whom you love and you cared about... i didnt think a minute about my birthday, until i entered that place ... i see all my friends song to me .. "happy birthday to you"... i really love it .. i can't talk in that moment .. i really astonished ... and in the same time i was happppy ...
to all my friends... you make my life very lovely and sweet... and surprising... thankx to all of you .. i will never ever forget this day ... i will keep it in my RAM
 and never send it to my harddisk  wish you all the best .....
your sister 2006/5/13 my Semester:)hi .. every one..
how's the exams... i have one today... dont know if i did well or not.. but i study hard and i dont care about the marks anymore... i want to be like every body else who achived thier dreams .. cause they always see the big picture.. not the marks...
well in the end of this semseter .. i want to write a few word about the like and dislike about this course..
first the like ...
i reaaaaaaaaaaaallly love this semseter cause i get the chance to know many of my colleage and we start a very lovely friendship .. i hope it will last forever.. also .. i like some of my drs... althought they didn't appriciate me .. but i respect their thinking and beleive.. any way.. thankx for them .. i know now what should i becomes and i know where is this career will guide to my dreams :).. but in any case .. i dont want to take a subject again with them( and you say you like them "drs")...
so in the end.. i really enjoyed this semster.. but in other hand...
dislike....
i hate thinking that my marks will effect cause .. the "......" dont appriate my beuatiful work ... and in addition .. i hate taking 6 subject.. i feel a presure and i hate this feeling .. wish me luck anyway .. cause i really need it ..
in near future, i will write about my training in this summer.. :)
see you all SOON
2006/5/9 I know NothingHi everyone .. How is your week .. i hope it went very good.. for me .. it was mixed between good and bad ..
anyway,it was good , or not bad at the end, cause something amazing i discovered about the most of the people and among them me ..we as human always think we are right or blame others for some of our problem .. we maybe never think about blame ourself instead .. and i'm here talking about my self.. well it's not only this matter for me .. i'm also think sometime that i know most of things ,, but when i come to reality ,, i know nothing ..even what is my feeling .. what is the life i lived until now .. my only answer that i have is to do my best ,,, .. well .. ok.. i know that .. but what i did up to now is not satisfying that need.. today .. and this week... i thought about it very carfully .. and i know now .. that we shouldn't do our best .. we have know what is exatly we need .. what is our dream .. ?? .. i've already made mine.?? what about you?? ..if you haven't decided yet .. you should think about making one.. cause if you dont know this ... this tiny information about your future or about you life.. so you will be know nothing...
ok.. leaving you for today .. and tomorrow is a new day :)..
however, i have exam tomorrow ..so dont forgot to pry for me :)
2006/5/4 todayTODAY................
my feeling still confusing ,, or worried ..
is it worst or is it the best for me ..
Today was the most confusing day i ever live .. but it turns in the end .. sweetest day ... So i wanna keep it in my memories .. and every time, my day start misrable .. i will know that it will turn all good.. and maybe the best...
But really i wanna ask .. have you ever feel soooo sad .. or soooo angry about something... well for me .. i express this feeling with my friends in this week .. it was... woooooooooo.. it's the first time i shared my true feeling with someone.. other than my self... it was a bit relieve that i have some one to depend on ..
what i can say more.. well i think i can't thank enough..
thankx to all my friends.. espiecailly you :) |
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