AGAIN
 
days by days.. and months by months
i thought it's easy to wait .. and if i do my best .. i will success as always.. but i miscalculated the formula
by the time i figure it out.. i already have mess my life ..and destroy my self
 
one year and half.. i decided to work .. and as any new graduated.. i will accept anything,..
after 7 months of searching.. I've joint a career which is not related to my passion.. and as all the people say .. "it's ok".. no one find the job these days.." you are lucky"
Lucky .. this is what i thought in the beginning.. but after i joint another branch.. it's been a complete opposite.. i try to endure it .. cause as all the people including my family and friends ..say  "you are lucky to find a job these days. especially with your salary".. days by day .. months by months.. i felt depressed, like i'm falling to the ground .. no body heard my scream (complains) they thought i'm happy ... and they may envious me .. but i was fooling them .. and fooling my self.. my passion .. my studies.. my self.. i felt i'm losing all that .. especially in the new branch.. EVEN the most nearest person said that i'm exaggerating it.. so i decided to join my friends and study master (MBA) it would be interesting to learn about my new work more and more and that could make me love it and in the result success on it .. it was all calculated and the new plan was already clear to me, but it was a fail plan like the other.. what happened to me ?, i thought  maybe because it's not only working with extremely uncomfortable area, with no interest in that field.. but also working with something against my religion.. it's been killing me that feeling.. but i didn't feel it that strong until the last Ramadan.. i cried every night .. i was sick every week .. that doesn't make my judgment clear.. until i relied to Allah ..and i thought AGAIN
 
what did i miss calculate ?? what did i do to make it this end ?? how did i make it wrong??
 
i can miss one ...twice .. but not all the time
my life is punishing me.. so i do something wrong
AFTER one year and half .. i've decided to change AGAIN.. and go back to my old self that i forgot ..
SO ... after calculating again.. with helping of all i can get.. i've decided to quit .. quit everything that not related to my passion ... and start AGAIN.. a new beginning ..
where ALL what they say doesn't matter.. only a job that make my dream true.. this is what matter to me NOW
 
so what do u think ?? did i make a mistake again ??

To you all ..

AGAIN (FULL METAL ALCHEMEST)

 Have a Great WeekEnd