hi .. first i have to appologize to all my friends

the reason is written in here

 

few days ago .. i sent this design to All my friends

 

 

it's nothing serious .. but without realized it .. i felt really empty, bored and very lonely ..

i tried to talk to anyone, but nobody was there for me , or maybe i close all the door for anyone to come to me

.. so i felt ignored, and that force me to change my style, and my life..

i spent almost 20 hours, sitting infront the computer. almost 10 hours on the forum reading and posting my opinions

5 hours in the youtube, watching the new animes & drama, and sometimes reading manga.

 and 5 hours searching, browsing, and designing

i'm almost niether not sleeping at all , or sleeping all the day, i dont go anywhere, or do anything useful anymore 

i hated myself,  that's why i felt like this could be the design that express me..

well anyhow.. i think i could do something more useful than this ..

such as applying for a job..i thought if i apply to jobs, it will waste my energy

although i think until now that this is true .. but i guess i will find some job to keep myself away from the dark thoughts

and it's almost eid (vacation) ... i hope i could change my routine before ramadan finish